I don’t understand how I can be so sad but so happy at the same time. I’m just so extremely grateful and happy to be in school and I love the atmosphere and the energy I get from here. Im just struggling so hard to make friends, not the fake drunk ones that you meet one night and never talk to again but real legit ones that are down to go get breakfast with you the night after you met drunk. It comes off to me that everyone else has this whole college thing somewhat figured out and Me? Im still stuck in my highschool ways it seems like. I miss home and my friends so much sometimes . I have no idea what to do .
Things need to get better. I need to find some type of stability in my life and simply stick to the plan. My mind can’t take the constent back in forth coming from all aspects of my life. Things have to get better, they have to…